Feeling of Pian

Went shopping again yest..din bought much but bought a pair of beautiful shoes..Really nice..at least nice to me.. =)

Had dinner with Janice, Hua, Dawn, Bryan, Xiong, Peng, and Melvin…Missing in action are the famous Qi & Qin..

One have to study..the other take care of her mum..

Saw the 2 loving couples..a kind of indescribable pain flow thru me..

Seem like moi over nite lost all my supports..all my love..all those that are impt to me..

God suddenly took away all my things that belonged to me in a short while…

Mistake was done..and was to learn..but do ppl reali learn? Or ppl still try to hide their actions..? I have learnt..do other ppl learn?

Online or not shown to me is not impt cos heart is not there ani more..no point moi guessing and asking myself why..

Probably chat with others is much more entertaining..

Time to bathe and go and see mummy le..

True?

Guys drink to forget about the girl...
Girls drink to think back about the guy...

When guys are in love, they become poor...
When girls are in love, they become pretty...

Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..

Guys care the most about the quantity of love...
Girls care the most about the quality of love..

Guys break-up when they feel love from another girl...
Girls break-up when they feel the feeling of separation from her man...

Guys feel curiosity towards all girls...
Girls feel curiosity towards guys who are interested in her..

When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl...
When girls are heartbroken, they try to find his characteristics from another guy...

Guys wish to be her first love....
Girls wish to be his last love...



"Women are nothing but trouble,
And Men are nothing but trouble seekers"

Suay Dae

Spent over $200 yest…went shopping alone..this is not the 1st time.. Whenever i feel down..i will go sm where quiet..or shop alone..Bought several things..but guess clothes still the majority of the contribution to the $200 over..

Dunno will wear or not...just buy..will I feel better?? Me myself also dunno..

Feel like buying more today..

Dunno y so suay..smtimes I wonder izzit my suayness caused Mummy to suffer..

Early in the morning..the sandals that I bought less than 1 month broke.. I have to drag my feet to work today.. raining samore!! sob..

Hai...

Went to Hong Lim to deposit my boss cheque then my colleagues accompany moi..They went to a hello kitty shop in China Town Point..Went in to accompany them..while I was browsing the things in the shop while chatting with Jing Ting..A box with a hello kitty in it hit directly on my head!!..sob..pain pain~!!

Went to several shoes shop to buy a pair of shoes..but non caught my eyes..then I guess my colleagues kinda sianz too..so settle on 1 that is slightly okay pair..sob…

Went back to office..then wanna get back the documents that I faxed..Guess what..i trip and fall…sob….

Now early of the day oni..what is coming later??

Haiz..

Down

The sky is crying for my Mummy’s depart these daes…

Life seem so meaningless for me..things just not right for me every hour..every min..every sec..Nothing is right for me..

Nothing…

When will the sun shine on me again?? The dark clouds keep hovering over me..

My future seem dark..i cant see any meaning to go on…

Im nobody…im extra…

There are so many of me on this earth..wats missing 1 of me on this earth..no1 will notice aniwae..

How I wish everything can restart allover again..

Y is other ppl life so perfect yet mine like shit?

Im so jealous of everybody now..

Im jealous of a girl..she is actually my sec sch frien..her mum got cancer too..last stage too..but miracle shone on her mum and her mum recover from cancer..

They said is Jesus heal her mum…Therefore I joined Christianity to seek for miracle too…

But it did not shine on us..

I believe I am a much better and good gal than her..at least I wun cheat on my bf to go for my frien’s bf...but y didn’t God shine his power on us??

Ppl can have perfect relationship.. perfect family.. perfect children.. perfect future.. I also wan..but where r mine??

Mummy is suppose to see me graduate..see me marry..take care of my children…but y god wanna take her away from us??

Where is all my Love? My Love has ran away from me..

Ppl comforted me that the year is ending soon next year will be a good start for me..

Come to the end le so wat? Mummy will not come back…

Everything is so down for me..

Wat else is coming toward me the next moment?

God pls blessing the remaining ppl who truly Loves me..

Ppl…Cherish those who truly Loves U too...

Farewell Mummy

Farewell Mummy…
U will always be in our heart..
U r the most wonderful mum in the world~!
U r out of pain now..
In Heaven right now…
Full of Health,
Looking radiant n young..
U r in God’s arms now..
He will help us to take care of U Mummy..
I will see U in Heaven 1 day Mummy..

I Love U Mummy~


this is a video made to the song "Heaven" by Dj Sammy. It is presented through the little girl in the song. The girl in this video lost her daddy..Memories of her daddy and her are so precious to her.. she said to her daddy " I will visit U in Heaven 1 day~!" i hope you all enjoy~

We have faith in Him

The Lord is my strength,
And He is the saving refuge of His anointed.
Psalm 28:8

I believe our Father Lord Loves us all..He will not want any of us to suffer…He will heal my mum with the faith we all have in Him..

For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God
Ephesians 2:8

Chemotherapies have been stopped for her..Her cancer cells r growing so rapidly that the doctors advised us that we stop chemotherapy for her to lift her from the sufferings from chemotherapy…and to let her live better for the rest of her daes..

She had no control over her legs and arms..even her bowels..the cancer cells are pressing on her nerves..radiotherapy was actually to be done to help her..but as she is weak the doctors gave up on the radiotherapy too..

Now that the doctors have all given up hopes on my mum..I have seeked miracle in our Father Lord.

Do not forbid him, for no one who works a miracle in My name can soon afterwards speak evil of Me.
Mark 9:39

Thank You Eileen for bringing me to Church..to seek for Miracle.. =)Thank You..