Walked Away

It all started out when my sis tried to show me that she is doing a roster for us all do the housework..I told her no point to do such a roster..who ever is free and have the heart to do it we will do..and when she did that my eldest sis will sure unhappy.. She did not heel my advice and printed out the roster and paste it on the fridge..I saw my eldest sis reading it..then i went to my sis room and told her that i have already told her not to do that y the hell she go and do it? Her face immediately turned black..took the roster and tear it into pieces..and shouted at me..and msn me “I HATE U FOREVER!!” The very moment i feel my sis still have not grown up and childish..

She slammed the door and throw out all the clothes on the floor..Dad was very furious..he cant shout at my sis so he came into my room and shouted at me..say y i wanna quarrel with my sis..i told him that i did not..wat i did was tell her not to do that..but he keep shouting at me putting all the fault on me..and i buay tahan and shouted back at him and to avoid more furious quarrel i ask him to leave my room..then he even more furious and shouted more loudly at me..and starting to say very nasty words..

I changed and walked out of my house at ard 11.45 to avoid me shouting back at my dad.. when i walked out crying..aimless..wanted to call jie..but some1 else called me at tat moment..tat some1 came to comfort me..reali appreciate tat..my fone keep ringing after i leave the house..my mum called..but i tot its my dad tat called so i din ans all the calls..and he msg me very nasty words again..using my mum to threaten me..i did not reply him instead i msg my mum and tell her i am out..asking her not to worry..

Went home and guess wat i saw..my sis pasted a paper on her door for me to see..on the paper she wrote “I HATE U!!!” i ignore the paper and close up my door and went to bed..

This morning while i bathing..several fone calls came in..when i came out mummy told me that the doctor called..she went for another scan yest which cost 1 over k for the scan alone..and the result is out..the result show that her cancer cells have spread to her bones already tats y she keep having pain...she cried..i also cried..she said dunno how long can she live..we cried together..but very soon she asked me to go and prepare for work..

Dun feel like going home for dinner these daes..but i feel mummy wants me to accompany her..cos she dote on me the most..I know she fear..I fear too..

She is warded again today..to prepare for another operation on Friday..Which is a very very high risk operation..cos its operation her bones..its all near her nerves..but if she do not go for the operation she will paralysis soon..but to do this operation..she may be taken away from us...

God pls dun take her away from me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='''(

痴心绝对

李圣杰 Lee. Sam

想用一杯Latte把你灌醉 好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味 你不懂这种感觉 早有人陪的你永远不会

看见你和他在我面前 证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的 那些憔悴 是你永远不曾过的体会

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解 我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退 我的防备 静静关上门来默数我的泪

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会 我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天 你会发现 真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

曾经我以为我自己会后悔 不想爱的太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪 为你做任何改变 也唤不回你对我的坚决

Only Love

Trademark

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're tellin' me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're askin' me

Chorus:
But only love can say
Try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my heart
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

Chorus

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our goodbye

Chorus

The Cracked Pot

A water bearer in China had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole which he carried across his neck.

One pot had a crack in it, while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water. At the end of the long walk from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full.

For a full two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water to his house.

Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments, perfect for which it was made.

But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.

After 2 years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream... "I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house."

The bearer ! said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of the path, but not on the other pot's side?" That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I planted flower seeds on your side of the path. Every day while we walk back, you've watered them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate the table. "Without you being just the way you are, there would not be this beauty to grace the house."

Moral: Each of us has our own unique flaws. We're all cracked pots. But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding. You must take each person for what they are, and look for the good in each one.


 

Hands

Guess whose hand was that with a ring on the middle figger? There are total 7 person's hands there..hmm..they are..Qin, Qi, Me, Hua, Xiong, Bryan and Vincent..Guess correctly whose hand was that and u gotta choose from the 4 fabulous guy and one of they will give u a peck on the cheek!!!muhaha... =P 


Its so dark in here...can u see us?? 


OoOo..Guess Whose body is this and u will get to meet the person face to face if u got it correct!! lol.. 

Me Minus U Equals Blue

Medeiros Glenn
Composição: Desconhecido

ME MINUS U EQUALS BLUE

With all my heart, I pledge my love forever
You’ve got my word, you and I will always be together
There maybe times, we have a disagreement
This love’s too strong, to ever let it come between us

I would, I would keep this love alive Oh baby
I would, I would be cause otherwise

Me minus u equals blue
Can’t imagine what I ever do
If it’d ever came to
Me minus u equals blue
I can’t stand the thought I’ve lost so far
Like so many hearts being in the dark
It’ll never be me minus u

Each day I learn, a little more about you
Then I know for sure, that I’d never wanna be without you
With all the stage of truth of this relation
Me without your love is such a sad equation baby

I would, I would keep this love alive Oh baby
I would, I would be cause otherwise

Me minus u equals blue
Can’t imagine what I ever do
If it’d ever came to
Me minus u equals blue
I can’t stand the thought I’ve lost so far
Like so many hearts being in the dark
It’ll never be…

What we got can’t get much better
I would never change a thing
Baby we’re so good together
Then I’ll never, never ever want it to be me

Me minus u equals blue
Me minus u equals blue
Can’t imagine what I ever do
If it’d ever came to
Me minus u equals blue
I can’t stand the thought I’ve lost so far
I want you in my life
I can’t be without your love

Me minus u equals blue
Can’t imagine what I ever do
If it’d ever came to
Me minus u equals blue
I can’t stand the thought I’ve lost so far
I need you here with me

Y am I here?

Super depress today… It something that that I trying hard to let go as it was not heading anywhere, any progress..

Im still waiting and hoping…but as I wait and try to do something to make it works..it doesn’t seem to move...nothing happens..

Maybe I’m impatient...maybe it’s already part of me tats y I fear..or maybe im afraid..or maybe I lack of something..i dunno…I just feel lost..

I dunno wat to do..tell me wat to do!!tell me!!I’m drained and depress cos of the things happened…

I become a mono person..acted to be happy..smile whenever I need to..laugh whenever I need to..tok when ever I need to..short temper..always tearing..

Aniwae..Today office network got problem..till late afternoon then they manage to solve it by buying a new router and modem..

Did nothing much today..instead blurr blurr..today then I found out that I made a mistake..my colleagues salary all r actually higher than me..im the lowest..i always tot they r lower than me cos when I prepare the pay roll that time I tot they r drawing that much..but I forgotten abt the CPF thingy...no wonder my boss wanna hire me..haha…aniwae it doesn’t matter..just work hard and dun lose my job can liao..

Lotsa calls come in today on my mobile fone..i ans the 1st one..cos im afraid that it maybe my sch that calls..in the end its not..and its was my issuance agent that called saying that they cant deduct the amount from my bank..cos I canceled the giro last 2 months ago if im not wrong..now then they realize..aniwae..told him I wanna cancel 1..cos I need money..then I think think think..maybe I should cancel both…I need wat issuance? If 1 dae I got cancer then even better...get out this ugly world faster..He tried to chat with me at the same time which I cut him off quickly..

Din ans all the calls after that..

Wat am I?? Y am I here??

Some words for ya~

For all guys out there...esp those with special someone...
Quoted from Mingli's blog...

女人可以為了一件小得不能再小的事，
發一場大得不能再大的脾氣。

因為女人對所愛的人有所要求，
有所期望，所以常常會失望、失落，
因此，女人容易對愛人發脾氣。

Woman are unreasonable. Therefore you guys don't have to understand them, just love them.

My Downs...

Din blog for quite sometimes..kinda tire..stress..depress..scare…worried..

Mummy got 4th stage of cancer..which is the last stage of cancer...I never stop crying when i heard the news..waiting outside the operation theater which is much worst...predicted supoose to be a 2 hours operation went far beyond it to 5 hours operation..Mummy went in for the operation at abt 10.30am…but she was push out of the operation place at ard 7pm oni..

I forced back my tear when she is being push out..so that she wun see me cry…Daddy cried too when he told me that mummy condition was actually much much much worst than wat the doctor actually see..when they operate on my mummy they then find out that mummy’s cancer cells has spread all over..lots of her parts was removed..the cancer that was actually on her liver cannot be done on the same dae was it will threaten her life…it has to be done at least 3 months later..

After the operation..mummy have to keep on pressing for morphine to ease her pain..my heart ache for her when I see her suffer…

Lotsa ppl come and visit my mummy during her stay in the hospital..esp my relative from my daddy side..some almost come everydae.. probably because of my uncle death they appreciate lives much more and probably to give my daddy some support as he is super depress..my 2 precious buddies also came to visit my mummy and keep moi accompany too!thanx so much!!

Its not the end after this operation…mummy still gotta go for chemotherapy...Actually the doctor said mummy need to go for 3 sessions…but…after that operation...the doctor said she need to go for at least half a year...1 session cost 2k near 3k…when mummy heard that…she cried….and she wanted to give up on the treatment…daddy also worried…cos the bill will dry us up…it will total up to at least 40k or much more..the insurance that she has had already all used up on her major operation..

Mummy discharge last 2 daes..but she still super weak..her back still keep on pain..realli dunno wat to do…

Daddy took whole week of unpaid leaves to take care of her..cos all his leaves have been used up during his trip with mummy to aust…Daddy say that he wanna bring mummy to Europe after mummy recovers..cos mummy always wan to go there…but now dun think it wouldnt be so soon…cos all the money will be use for mummy’s treatment.. how I wish I can fulfill their dreams…

Really hope mummy will fight against this demon and win this battle with all our support and love~And hope mummy get well soon…

Result out recently...got super bad results..so bad that the sch called up and ask me back for interview...Realli feel like giving up..but when I think of its daddy and mummy dream for me to get a degree I dunno wat to do...maybe I should just try on again…aniwae see hows the interview ba...im sorry to my freinz that ask me how I fare..i just too ashamed to say out my results…

Its stressful at work too..with lotsa things to learn..but the thing is not the learning part..but my position is always shaking...with a boss that likes to sack ppl when he/she cant perform or he doesn’t like…he just came back on tues..the moment he is back..i feel the pressure and the stress.. and the cash flow of this company not very good…actually its not hard for me to find another job..but I feel that I just cant afford to waste time on finding and choosing cos we need money..and I need money to pay for my sch fee too..

Unlove too..Missing someone who is dear to u is bad…

My body gets problematic again..

Guess wat..today is moi BD..haha…and I am here writing my bloggie..but not too bad..at least my frein help me found a song that I wanted it so badly..but just cannot able to find it..thanx you~! Got a few sms greeting from my buddies…U all r really my precious freinz…u all never fail to stand beside me when I am down..thank you so much.. If I did something wrong in the past..pls forgive me…

I wish...

May God protect and take care of those who r dear to me…let them happy always..